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Life has all it’s up and downs…

“Liz??”

“Hi~! How are you?”

“Um.. Where is Abigail?”

“Abigail? I have no idea… must be still at uni. Why?”

“You…um…”

And then it hit Will. He suddenly took out he’s phone in a swoosh, scroll down to [Sent Messages]…..

Staring back at him..

Sent to: Abigail…..’s Sister

…

…

Liz standing there, at the garage door. Slowly the smile on her face drifts off. Looking blankly at Will, standing there, looking at he’s phone.

“um….what’s wrong?”

Will is speechless.

He has made such a stupid mistake. Ok, he has made many mistakes in he’s life, but none of which was so stupid?… He doesn’t know what to say to Liz. Lie and pretend he never did anything wrong? Or Be truthful?

“Liz..um…I’m sorry..”

“Why? what did you do? Well i did think your message was a bit werid and full on, but I knew you always joke around, so i thought it was just a random joke u wrote before you went to sleep.”

“Um..yea, about that message..”

“It’s ok, I didn’t take it to heart~! haha, i came out to see you to see what’s going on as well, nothing more.”

“All dressed up?”

“hehe…I always dress like this…yea”

“Well about that message, it was meant to be for Abigail, but i accidentally sent it to you as you are in my contact list as Abigail’s sister, which is one under her name…”

“Oh..that make so much more sense now..um…yea, i will see you later then………….”

She knew, well, a part of her did. Her life wouldn’t be so wonderful. It just won’t

“I’m really sorry, to have scared you like that with the random message. “

“That’s ok, I didn’t get scared, what you on about, haha everyone knows you joke alot, I never take anything you say to heart.” [Although i do remember everything you say….] Liz thought, but didn’t dare to say the second part.

“Sorry again, for all these trouble…..yea”

“all good, i will see you later..”

“yea…”

Will can tell the disappointment on Liz’s face. It was a Friday night, and he ruined her night for her….

“HEY~! Wait~!” Will called out.

“Um..Liz, are you doing anything tonight?”

“Um..not really”

“Well, wanna go grab something to eat then? I’ve known you for so long, but we never really hung out before. My treat~! lets just treat it as my apology to you.”

“Haha, I told you already, you don’t need to apologies. it’s no biggie” Liz smiled. One of the brightest smile Will has ever seen. No wonder they are sisters he thought.

“No it’s ok, i insist, for causing you all the trouble, let me buy you something to eat.”

With a bit more convincing, Liz is sitting in the passenger seat.

She didn’t picture tonight to turn out like this. As the car backs out of the drive way, she’s mixed with emotions. Happy? that Will is driving her to somewhere? that they are eating together? Or Guilty, because the person he really wanted to see tonight was Abigail…

As the car backs out of the drive and heads towards the sunset, Abigail appeared from the corner of the street. She can recognize the car from miles away, with the distinct roar. And as she walked closer, she sees a familiar person sitting in the passenger seat…

Seeing the two people sitting with a smile on their faces…and driving off.

It cut her…deep.

He slept pretty well

She didn’t sleep at all

He woke up at 8am, wide awake, with a smile on his face

She stayed up till 8am, wide awake, with a smile on her face

—-

The whole day, Will couldn’t concentrate on anything, checking he’s watch every 2 minutes, praying it will hurry and reach 5pm.

He started getting dressed at 3pm in the afternoon.

Took him so long to find a nice outfit.

He never spent such long time to make sure he looked just right.

Putting on the perfume that she once gave him.

He also spent hours just thinking about what to say to her.

Apologize for all this stupid things he’s done?

Start chit-y chatting about everything and pretend nothing has ever happened?

Or live on he’s EGO again, and brag about all the girls that tried to chase after him.

No, that’s a bad idea he thought. Last time he followed he’s ego, it didn’t lead him to anywhere pleasant.

No, he will just be honest and maybe romantic this time.

She always called him un-romantic.

He always thought romantic is so materialistic and fake.

But he started to appreciate it all when he lost it all.

A restaurant was especially booked for the night.

Everything was set. A nice dinner by the beach. Eating her favorite pasta while watching the sunset. Then it all ends with a walk on the beach…

It will be perfect.

He thought.

As 5pm approaches..

As he’s heart races

As he drives up the drive way of her house.

He gets off the car.

He stands by he’s car, looking at he’s watch. Looking at every sec ticks by

5:00:00pm

It showed.. (in analog, as he never liked digital watches)

The such familiar sound started to raw.

The garage door slowly ascends upwards.

He can see her feet.

She’s wearing a nice pair of boots

He can see her whole leg now.

A nice short skirt.

It keeps no ascending.

He was never so happy in he’s life to be able to see her again.

He notices she changed the way she dressed, he always have told her to have some variety, and she finally listened.

That’s why he loved her, doing everything, even the little nitty gritties just for him.

As the garage door fully opens up.

He started to walk forward, closer and closer, to get a long awaited hug.

And then, he froze.

What awaits him is her, standing there, with the arms open and huge a smile on her face.

He, though, can’t smile at all.

Is it all too much to see her again?

no…

He slowed opened he’s mouth

He’s eyes are twisted…

And he pushed out one word….

“Liz???”

2008, May, 12th.

Twenty eighth minutes into two o’clock.

Millions of lifes were turned upside down at that moment.

A huge 7.8 Earthcrake struck sichuan Provence in China.

As to now, Over thirty thousands people have perished within the cracks of earth.

I’m sure you all have heard about it…

I’m not here to talk about it.

I was deeply cut when I heard about the news. Natural disasters happens all the time.

The cyclone in Burma took so many more lifes, but this particular one happened in my mother land. The place where I spent more than half of my life on.

Let our prayers go out to everyone effected…

On the other note tho. What really effected me is to see everyone sending out a helping hand.

Everyone, came together really fast to help.

Some volunteered as helpers, some donated huge amount of money.

My home Provence, one of the poorest Provence in china, has already collected over 100million in donations.

It really touched my heart to see everyone helping out strangers like that.

What especially tragic about this event is it happened in the afternoon, and most of the kids were in school.

One story that nearly made me cry:

A three month(years? forgot >.<) baby was saved out of the rubble, he was holding onto a mobile phone and on the phone it was a message typed by he’s mum. It said :” baby, if you can survive through this, just so you know, I love you”. The mother died, in process of trying to protect her baby.

There are millions of stories like this.

Natural disasters are not stoppable, so why not change our mourning and sadness to something useful. Help out, and donate money to this tragic event.

50 aussie dollars will help one victim to survive for the next one month.

Even 1cent is a worthy donation. Nothing is too small, nothing is too big.

CLICK HERE TO DONATE THROUGH REDCROSS
(If you don’t have credit card, there are many other ways of donating)

A notable mention of celebrities donating: Jacky Chan - 1600000[RMB]

It’s time like this, that make you realise….

There are love in the world, a lot of it, and that’s what makes our world go around..

Life as a single isn’t as free as everyone makes it out to be.

Will totally forgot what it was like.

Girls every where.

Doing anything he wanted to.

Life would be great.

At least that’s what he thought.

But all he got was a few comforting lines, and a lot of space.

All the girls were afraid to go near him, even the ones that are interested in him.

Everyone is scared of the so called ‘rebound’

He misses her

He misses the time they had together

The laughter they shared

Everything about her, he missed…

He will not call her tho. He’s ego’s way too big for him to do that.

And he will not pick up her calls. He doesn’t want her to know the state that he’s in. Since he initiated this experiment, he has to live up to it..

Does he?

He still question himself, every second of the day. “Why am I doing this? I was living such a wonderful life, why do I torture everyone?”

“To make the future better..” A little voice inside he’s voice said.

Every night, he sits on he’s bed, and the mind just go through the same thought process.

Tonight, it got disturbed.

*ring ring…*

“Hello?” He picked up, greeted the person with a question, as the number was foreign to him.

“Hey there~!”

It’s a cheerful girl voice… Who could this be, he asked himself.

“Um..Hi..Who is this?”

“Will~! Can’t recognize my voice?”

“Um..” In he’s mind, all the girls he knew scrolled through, none of which jogged he’s memory.

“It’s me~! L-L-L—-iii—z”

“Liz? hm…”

“I’m disappointed in you Will, we see each other practically everyday…”

“We do? I’m so sorry…but….”

Then it hit him, it can’t be Liz, but all clues points to that direction.

Liz, Abigail’s younger sister. Will does see her every time he goes over. Which is practically everyday.

But why is she calling me? He’s puzzled.

“OH~! Abi’s Sister?”

“Bingo~! Took you awhile.”

“hehe..um..not meant to be rude or anything, but why are you calling me?”

“Er.. that is very rude Will”

“oh, i’m sorry..um.Can I help you?”

“I just felt like chatting.. :D”

” Er.. hm.. Yea I am currently in the middle of something, so yea..”

“Oh ok, maybe I will call you back later then~!”

“Yea, thanks, um..before you go, can I ask…did Abi ask you to call me? To see how i’m going?”

“Haha, in your dreams~! She forgot about you ages ago.”

“oh, um..yea, that’s good”

“Ok, I will call you another time then”

“Yea, ok, that’d be good….cya”

“Bye”

…

He’s speechless..

Why is she calling me?

Maybe she just got nothing else better to do, and choosed a random number to call…

maybe..

Oh well.

He didn’t put much thought into it.  Saved the number under [Abigai’s Sister] and simply went to bed.

He loved sleeping.

The whole feeling is just so relaxing…

…

…

He always have good night sleeps,

Not tonight tho.

Half way through the sleep, he suddenly woke up.

A bit of sweat coming out of he’s forehead.

Did he have a nightmare?

Will tries to re-collect he’s thoughts, no it wasn’t a nightmare.

Infact, it was actually a nice dream

A dream of Abi and him, on a sunday afternoon, counting the clouds.

The moment he opened he’s eyes…

He felt so alone

So useless

15month seemed to be a lifetime away.

He couldn’t take it anymore

That moment, he throw he’s ego into the trash.

[Hey there. Um..I’ve been thinking about all these. I am wrong, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done what I’ve done, I really need you. I’ve finally realised, discovered my love for you is not something that can simply be put away for a while. Can you meet me at outside your house tomorrow please? 5pm sharp. We will go somewhere?]

He typed this message, without a thought at all, it all just came from he’s deep inside. Rushly clicked send so he couldn’t change he’s mind about it.

(Message sent) the phone beeped.

Afterwards, a part of him felt relived, happy to have her back

Another part of him felt ashamed, to retreat everything he intended to do, but the joy was over powering.

Such joy comfortably put him back to sleep..With a faint smile on he’s face…

—

*beep.* The message tone rang loudly.

The half asleeped her, woke up, grumpily grabs the phone and tries to read the message.

She hates people waking her up while sleeping. But this time, she smiled

She was so excited to read the message.

Such joy, kept her up the whole night.

She lied on her bed, eyes wide open, thinking about tomorrow…with a smile..

No, not KKK, but Krispy Kreme~!

Why does the eastern state people get them, and we don’t ?

where’s the fairness in that.

Contact with KK has been made the they don’t intend to open one in perth.

Why say no to free money?

Lets show them there is a market in perth

Sign the peition here

the following post isn’t for you non-geeky people, as you’d have no idea what’s going on

——–

So i got the blue screen of death…

*this isn’t the picture from my computer..u can’t really screenshot when my lappy’s dead*

Pissed at the whole situation, I decided to give ubuntu a try. I’ve always wanted to do it, and this screen just pushed me over the line.

So after hoursand hours of downloading, installing, etc etc

I got ubuntu started working:

Everything worked fine. and it’s got some awesome on board programs, so i was delighted, but what didn’t work well was the wireless net, somehow it just won’t work.

After hours of questioning, hours of coding lines…

I gave up.

But i wasn’t going to give up on linux, so i did this:

openSUSE 10.3 was my next move

Wow, this distro is great. Got all the programs I wanted. the skin looked great, and the interface is simple enough to operate.

But again, the internet doesn’t work.

After another few days of questioning and lines of coding…

i resulted in this:

Here I am, back to XP again.

I question my self. Linux being so good and everything, but it just isn’t user friendly.

Windows XP, one click, internet working.

I guess linux has it’s own pros, but windows working for me perfectly right now (with maybe once in two years bsod), why do i need to change right?

lol, hello windows~!

To the rest of the world, they are just another good relationship gone down the drain. People simply forget about them after a few days.

A few “aww you will be fine”

A few “there’s more fish in the sea”

and a few more “Don’t worry, she/he wasn’t right for you anyway”

All that are meant to make people feel better…. really?

Abigail, not use to this whole ordeal, really feels like they’ve broken up. She has no idea what to say to him anymore, and he never calls her at night anymore.

It’s only been two days, would he really forget about her that fast? If he did, then he wasn’t worth having in the first place.

As day drags on, Abigail hates the idea more and more. She tried calling him, ask him to change the plan.

*ring … ring … ring..*

*”"The person is currently busy, please call back later”"*

That’s what she gets everytime.

Is he really ignoring her?

Is he that cold hearted?

Abigail knows Will quite well. Well enough to know he’s a stubborn person. Once he’s mind is set, nothing is going to move it.

She knows that for a fact.

But a part of her wanted that to change, she wanted…no, she needed this to stop.

Every night, she sits in her room, with her door locked.

With the night light he gave her, on their first month.

She stares into it blankly, hours at a time. Dreaming about all the time they had together.

Sounds corny, but that’s what happened.

It went on for a few nights…

*knock knock*

“I’m busy studying~! Please don’t disturb me” Abigail shouted, with the anger from such disturbance causing her to lose track of her thoughts.

“Abi, it’s me, open the door”

“Go away~! This is not a good time, I have to rush an assignment”

“Hehe, I’m holding your bag right now, you left it by the door when you came back….now tell me, how are you doing assignment without anything?”

“Damn it.” “What do you want?”

“Just want to talk to you lah”

“This really isn’t a good time”

“Com’n, just open up~!”

Abigail really didn’t want to talk to anyone, but her sister is being extremely annoying.

She dragged her feet to the door, opened it up.

“What do you want” She questioned

“Com’n, lets talk. I know why you’ve been upset lately…”

“Yea, you think you know everything”

“Haha, of course I do. Just because he dumped you, doesn’t mean you got be all ‘end of the world’ right?”

“How did you know?”

“Well, he hasn’t been coming around, you haven’t been on the phone at night… and you haven’t been talking or smiling”

“…”

“It’s alright sis, he wasn’t right for you anyway”

There goes that line again, what does that even mean? How does insulting someone I still love makes me feel better… Abigail never could understand.

“er..ok”

“So yea, cheer up~!”

“Thank you….you’ve made me feel better now, now please leave”

“No no, I didn’t come in here to cheer you up…well that wasn’t the main reason.” *hehe*

“I knew it, what do you want?”

“You know how Will is single now..”

“Yea?”

“Um… um…” *blush* “Um..”

“Spit it out”

“Can I get he’s number off you?”

“ARE YOU SERIOUS? My Own sister is moving onto my boyfriend?”

“EX~!”

“But he’s like….three years old than you”

“Love has no boundaries my dear sister”

“Don’t say that in front of me, give me the creeps”

“Com’n, just give me he’s number, I’m just helping you to forget him for ever and ever”

“”I shouldn’t let him play with my sister, what if he breaks her heart? I can’t let them go out…I can’t even let her get in contact with him. I should just let him do he’s own thing for the 15month….”" Abigail thought to herself.

“Thanks sis~!”

“What?…”

Abigail’s phone is lying on the bed next to her, on the screen, showing Will’s name highlighted…

Her sister copied down the number without asking.

“That girl~! Come back~!” She screamed.

She could never let her sister get involved into this whole thing.

A cruel human experiment shouldn’t hurt more than one person…. Herself.

“Remember that experiment you told me? I still don’t like the idea.”

“Why not~~!”

“How can you treat our love as a game?”

“I’m not, that’s the point, I have great faith in our love, that’s why i proposed this thing, i believe we will still love each other, even more in fact, after all this.”

“You think so?”

“Definitely”

With this, these comforting words, Abigail is slowly drifting towards such idea.

“”I trust him”", She thought to her self.

“Ok then, if you say so….how long will this be? one month?”

“Haha, your kidding right? How is one month going to be enough for anything?”

“Haha~~! 2 min is enough for YOU to do everything….*wink*”

“Oi~~! that’s not suppose to be joked at….anyway, I reckon 15 Month.”

“15 Month? Why”

“Because if my calculations are correct….5 month is enough for one relationship, 15 month is enough for 3 relationships..Actually, make it 15 month and one day. Give me a day to recover from everything :P”

“You, you you, always you, everything is about you isn’t it?”

“Hehe…”

“Sometimes, I really don’t understand you Will…”

“That’s ok, after 15 month and 1 day, you will fully understand all this”

“You know this hurts me right? But I do trust you, and hopefully all this will turn out to be good”

“Of course it will, and for the time been..just enjoy life!”

“What ever you say…Just remember, I will always love you…”

“So will I!”

*Click*

Abigail hangs up the phone, tear runs down her cheek.

Why did she agree to something that she feels badly about?

Why did she do something that hurts her so much?

Love.

Love is so blind.

She wanted to prove to herself and the rest of the world, their love is strong.

She wanted to truly test this thing they have.

“”I will not go out with anyone in this 15 month, it’s just too cruel to muck around with people’s feelings like that. I shall just sit here and wait. 15 month can’t be that long right? For now I should just concentrate on family and friends, and everything will pass by so fast. Next thing I know, I will be in he’s arm again, and we will be lying under the blue sky counting clouds…again..”" She comforts herself.

. . .

Will hangs up the phone, a smile grows on he’s face.

Why did he start something that could potentially ruin two people’s life?

Why did he start something that might hurt someone he cares so much about?

Love.

Love is encouraging.

He wanted to prove to her and the rest of the world, their love is strong.

He wanted to test he’s love for her.

And he also wanted to have fun.

“”15 month, three girls, I’d go through all the heartbreaks and everything else I need. It’d just be like a normal young person’s life. Nothing is taken too seriously, the main aim is to have fun. 15 month won’t be too long, time goes fast when your having fun right? And before I know it, I’d be back with her again, and we will continue to live our perfect life.”" He thought to himself.

PART I

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The sky is blue

The air is fresh

The grass is green, always green…

but

Is the sky on the other side bluer?

Is the air on the other side fresher?

Is the grass on the other sider greener? Always Greener?

<In this life, we are always unsatisfied with the life we are living, there will always be someone else living a life of our dreams. Next time you see that, ask yourself, do you really want that?>

“Hehe, yes I do”

Saying such statement without a thought. He, Will, always wanted to be a super star, always wanted to be the middle of the attention. To get such attention, he loves going against the grain, not saying he’d break laws, but he never follow trends.

Lying on the green grass on the deserted oval, admiring the clouds that passes by, one of he’s usual doings on a Sunday afternoon.

Lying next to him, a beautiful girl. Abigail.

“You serious? Why don’t you like your life? Am I not good enough? You know there’s a a line for me right? so you should just 好自为知”

“No no, your perfect, I love you. But don’t you think there’s a better life out there?”

“I’m sure life’s has it’s own possibilities, and that possibility is endless, but what do you mean?”

“Ok, let me ask you something, and make sure you answer me honestly, and don’t be pissed ok?”

“er..ok then, what is it”

“Do you miss being single? Do you miss the whole having a crush on someone and like, flirt with them, try to get them to like you back, you know? the whole thrill, the whole…yea”

*looks blankly*

“Are you pissed? i told you not to pissed lah, i’m not trying to dump you, i’m just..just..making conversation”

“No hun, i was just thinking about it. You know what, yea I do miss it, but what makes me not to miss is your smile”

“HAHA~~! Com’n~~! That’s so corny~~! haha, send shivers down my spine~~!”

“Just coz you don’t know how to be romantic…”

“you were serious? haha, I can be romantic~~! …..um… *puppy eyes* I LOVE YOU HONEY~~!!!”

“er..yea, wateva”

“Anyways. Think about it right? Our first relationship, and we’ve already gone out with each other for so long….everyone else is breaking up and re-falling in love…how come we haven’t even had a fight yet?”

“Coz we are deeply in love?”

“Seriously, i can’t take this corny crap>.<”

“Hmp”

“Do you think we will get married?”

“Er…i haven’t really thought that far yet…”

“Yea, neither have I, but if this goes on, i reckon we have a good chance….Do you believe we will get married?”

“YES =)”

“See, this is what i mean, don’t you think we are missing out on all the heartbreaks and the re-crushing?”

“No..not really”

“Com’n, think about it, if we know we will love each other forever… Then why not use our youth to enjoy what young people suppose to enjoy..”

“What? Guilt free sex?”

“Haha, just the whole thing i said before”

“Where are you going with this?”

“I reckon, we should separate for a while…Live life as singletons again, and see what fate brings us. Enjoy life now, and after a period of time, after all the ups and downs, we can come back together and treasure what we have now…like they said, no pain no gain right?”

“I don’t know, that’s a really stupid idea you know?”

“Don’t trust me? Haha, I guess you have the rights not to trust me, with all these girls eyeing me everyday..”

“In your dreams~~! I’m just scared you’d cry your eyes out when you see me with another guy”

“I promise i won’t~~! I trust you honey~~! *shivers, no more honey*”

“This is a really big decision you know…what you just going to go enjoy/experiment life at other people’s expenses? What if another girl falls in love with you? You just going to break her heart?”

“Well, that’s the genius of the plan…I’m not ‘breaking her heart’, i’m letting her enjoy life!”

“This is really a big decision, I will have to think about it…”

“Glad you are just not shooting it down~~! I know you trust me, and you know that I trust you too”

. . .

They spent the whole afternoon just lying there, discussing which cloud looks like each other.

That’s their Sunday Afternoon, every week, without fail.

But this could be the last of it, for a long time…

Happy Birthday Mate

Hopefully you enjoy this day hehe

You’ve been an awesome friend, constantly~! and today is your day~! use it to do what ever you want~! hehe

Enjoy~!

Keep on smiling~!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY