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“Justin…Justin, can you hear me Justin?”

Light peaked into his vision, took some time to focus the image, but it got there, someone wearing a white coat.

White…first thought that jumped into his head was “I should have believed the Christians, I should have believed in god, now the angels are going to shoot me down to hell, because I was a non-believer”

“Please, I don’t want to go to hell, can I do something to make it up to you?” He spoke with all his energy.

The person in white looked at him with a puzzled face and said :”son, welcome back to the real world, I’m Dr. Ting, how are you feeling?”

“i’m not dead?”

“Not just yet…”

As the vision continues to focus, he realized where he was.

The curtains were closed, but he could tell it was still dark. He started to remember it all, the whole happening.

He felt restricted, as he couldn’t move, and it ached everywhere, but the sight of the peaceful room was a nice change from the fright.

Sitting in the corner, a girl, sleeping peacefully on her knees.

Someone he couldn’t recongize.

The doctor understood the puzzled look and said:”She’s the girl that drove you here, is she your girlfriend? Such a nice girl.”

He didn’t know who she was, although, there’s something about her that made it all so familiar.

Maybe the sound of this conversation woke her up, she slowly sat up.

And right there.

It could be the best moment of his life.

Right there.

He wished this was not a dream.

Right there.

He was ecstatic.

That face, that girl, that smile…

It was her.

He somehow knew this was all a dream, and he is still lying on the beach sleeping.

But the pain on this body told him, this was no dream at all.

“Hey, you woke up” She said.

“…”

He had nothing to say

“How are you feeling?”

“..”

He could not find the words

As the doctor slowly exist the room, she approached the bed still holding that nice perfect smile.

“My name is Jessica, and I have your car keys?”

“…no way” he thought..

“I hid away for a whlie, after he ran away from you, i drove you here.”

“…” *blinks* “…”

“Well, not very friendly are you…thanks..”

“..”

“Thanks….for..that…yea..”

She turned around, swung her hair around, walked towards the door.

“No don’t go, stay with me~!” He didn’t speak such words.

He watched

Tried his best to process all.

He couldn’t

How can he be so lucky? Well, not lucky considering the state his in, but her. It was really her, smiling at him. Talking to him, introducing herself to him. Maybe even carried him… That thought could have melted him, if his body wasn’t so stiff.

She left. He didn’t get the chance to even say bye.

His such an idiot. First chance she took the initiative to talk, and he had nothing to say.

She left. Only thing he could do was watch the swinging door.

…

Days past, injuries recovered.

All his skin, flesh and blood was back, but something was missing.

Going to lectures everyday, he would always reach there extra early, and observe everyone who comes in.

She wasn’t there.

She never came.

She doesn’t usually skip lectures. But it had been days without even the sight of her anywhere.

He pondered on the thought of whether it was all just a dream. A dream from his creative mind.

He couldn’t stop thinking about her, even if she was imaginary, she was perfect. But if she was imaginary, then she would be perfect.

The emptiness took the best of him. Until one day.

He saw her, sitting under a maple tree, face buried in a dictionary sized book.

“Roadmap to the mind” it said.

“I didn’t know she was doing civil engineering…” He told himself.

“Hey~! Jessica” He called out.

She looked up, puzzled.

“Justin. Remember me?”

“Just..Justin~! oh it’s you~! Sorry i couldn’t recognize you without the bandages on your face…haha” “Glad to see you made a full recovery.”

“Heh, yea. Well, how come I haven’t seen you around in lectures anymore?”

“I um…took a few weeks off, to sort things out with myself…and I transfered course too.”

“Transfered why?”

“Well, i’m doing Psychology now, after what I’ve been through, and all the people that’ve helped me, it made realize how interesting the human mind is, and I would like to help people as well”

“hm..”

“there’s your speechless again.”

“Oh, yea sorry. Um.. that’s too bad, enjoying it tho?”

“Yea, it’s so much more interesting~! =D”

“That’s good Hey, I always wanted to ask this, sorry to bring this up, but who was the guy, you knew him?”

*Sigh*”It was..my boyfriend.” “We were on our 2nd year anniversary date, it was a bit late, because we all were so busy with work..”

“:|, your boyfriend? Why..what..why?”

“I guess he just got caught up in the moment”

“^o)”

“Well. We are fine now… :D”

“You what? still with him?”

“Yees~! hehe, he just made a mistake, and we still love each other very much..”

He could have died on the spot. Thinking of saving her from her brutal bf would have won her love, or at least break up something, but to his surprise, he actually toughened the relationship.

This is his life, all through out, he we face something exciting, and soon after it will be brought down by something else.

He was use to disappointments and failures.

But not this..this was over the moon.

Out of the blue, a force was exerted onto his left shoulder, a force he was familiar of…

Scared to turn around, but he did, and saw. It was him. Her boyfriend.

Knees trembling, he didn’t know what to say.

“You…um….yea…i’m just leaving now….um…..cya..”

“No mate, don’t go” A smile grew on the boyfriend’s face. “I really want to thank you, for that night.”

“Thank me?”

“If it wasn’t for you, I would have made the biggest mistake of my life, and lost the love of my life…Because of you, I didn’t do what I wanted to do, because of you, our lives are still normal, if not better.” “For that, I thank you”

“..”*that’s touching* he thought.. *Your lives are better, but what the fuck happens to me?* He continues to think. *You two are happy, enjoying each other..what do i get?* *Not a freakin thing…* *A few thanks? would that do? nop, would a few thanks smile at me when i’m down?* *No effin way* All these thoughts, of things he wanted to say, but he couldn’t With a joyful couple in front of him, he couldn’t do it.

“Er.. that’s alright, no need to say thanks…” *looked at his watch and went on* “Oh i’m going to be late for a lecture ,bye”

No one has lecture on the half of the hour, but that was the only excuse he could think of to get out of there, get out before he let himself burst out all the things that he wanted to say. He knew, if he does express it out, the girl would be hurt…and that’s the last thing he would want to do.

He ran.

Running, the only thing hes good at.

Running, such a crowdly thing to do. But there’s no other choice.

Ran he did.

As he past a lecture room, he slipt in.

This room was currently closed for demolishing. It was an ancient room, just the place he would want to be, somewhere dim and lack of people.

It was a big room, a 600 people lecture room, due to it’s age, it has to be demolished.

He ran to the middle, kneed down, as it seemed like the easiest and most comfortable position right now.

…..

All the way back to where the girl was at, she could sense there were something wrong. Her eye followed him, witnessed him entering the old room.

She made up an excuse as well, and hurried behind him.

She loved her boyfriend, she was sure.

The boyfriend loved her too, she wanted to be sure of that as well.

But she couldn’t just let a friend who once saved her to be hurt, she had to find out why.

…..

The door swung open.

Seeing him kneeing there, it wasn’t a pleasant sight.

“Are….you…alright?”

He heard her, he saw her, the smile was gone, but the expression of care that’s on her face was still as sweet as ever.

“yea. i’m alright, just…..i guess everyone else..is….late to lecture?”

With this, tears fell from his face…

He never cried in front of a girl before, it was one of his morals, but this time, it was too hard to hold it in.

Her footstep approached, and one of her hand landed on his shoulder. Patted.

It was more than a comfort pat. It felt more like sympathy and apology.

“I am sorry..”

“ddd.on’t be” Cold shiver rushed through his body.

“I do love him tho..” After saying that…she turned around and started to walk off.

He couldn’t help himself anymore, and slammed his fist into the years old wood floor.

Such shock sent through to the near by black board that’s hanging on the wall.

It shook..

It became unstable…

It fell.

In that split second, he could see from the corner of his eyes, that the board is falling directly at her.

The size of the board would crush her to bits….

Without thinking, he found himself on his feet, pushing her out of the way.

The board slammed down. And broke into pieces upon impact.

Such impact….made sure this would be the last lecture he would ever attend.

Using his very last strength, looked up, at the girl on the ground in front, clearly in shock..

“I do …..Love…..”

That’s all he could do…

Even on his last moment, the situation didn’t let him to express his true feelings.

Fate some would call it…It was just not meant to be….

“If you truly love someone, you set them free, He was free, and along setting her free…”

….the end….

…….

As someone requested a happy ending:

Since his out of the couples lives, they lived happily ever after…the end.

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